Results are in take 2...

That's right... she's preggo!! OMG! The nurse called with a fantastic number of, wait for it... 131!! yippee! Still too early to really know if it's one or two in there but Jen and I feel as if it's one. She goes back in on Saturday to make sure the numbers have doubled. This all feels so weird and unreal! Okay, confession time, we may have been expecting a positive beta today, yes she tested the last few days ;) and they of course came back positive. Here are the beauties:

 I don't know how I really feel about this. I want to get excited but I don't know how. I am nervous that things may not continue on the way I want them to. I have never carried a baby past 7 weeks and even though I am not the one carrying it, nervousness is all I know how to feel! Please tell me things get easier!

Oh the Waiting!

I can't take it! The waiting is killing me this time. I thought I would be calmer this time since I felt that way through the transfer, but no! Everyday I think to myself, "I'm not going to think about it. I'm going to just wait and see what happens." I am freaking out! I want Jennifer to take a test so if it continues to be negative I will be more prepared for negative blood work. I will have time to accept the outcome and not be so shocked. Her thoughts on the whole thing are that if it's negative she doesn't want me to know because she wants to protect me, I guess that's what big sisters do! I love her for that but I NEED TO KNOW!!

Transfer Day Take 2!

Well today was the day for our second attempt at transferring beautiful little embryos into their cozy home for the next nine months (fingers crossed!). Everything went as well as expected. Here's a little recap of the day:

The goodie basket I made for Jen complete with "Implanters" peanuts, "Skor" candy bar, "Success" rice, "Mission" dip, a few items that play on words for twins, and last but the most important "Lucky Charms".

                                               Wearing our green and yellow for good luck!

               Waiting for the doctor and chatting it up with the very friendly and humorous embryologist.

                                                   Our little embryos! Aren't they beauties?

                                               A view from the petri dish before the transfer!

                                                There they are snuggled up for the long haul.

Okay, now we wait. On January 31st we go in for a blood test to see if they decided to stick around but of course there may or may not be home pregnancy tests taken ;) So nervous!

Happy Dance!!

I just wanted to update everyone to say that I am so happy! Why you ask? I finished my last cancer treatment yesterday and am currently in remission now! Happy dance with me! 2013 is going to be a great year!

Oh my!

Hey everyone! I'm so glad to see Jen has filled you in on our latest updates. Thanks Jen ;). I believe it's my turn to fill you in on what's gone on the last day or so. Sunday we went in for another ultrasound and bloodwork. The follicle was measuring 16mm and needed to be around 18mm, her estrogen needed to be above 150 but wasn't quite there but her lining was perfect! Back in Monday she went. Again her follicle was not much bigger and her bloodwork came back at 113.....err! Tuesday she went back again. This time everything looked amazing! Follicle was at 20mm, estrogen was at 190! Way to go Jen! So we got the green light to give her a shot in the gut which will release her eggs. Here's where it gets crazy....ready? We transfer the embryos this coming Monday! Oh my! I can't believe we made it here again! I'm feeling every emotion you can think of! Ahhh! Okay, breath! So excited! So nervous!

Small Update

I wanted to stick to my promise to Brenna and keep everyone updated. So last Thursday I went back to the fertility clinic for another ultrasound (it's kind of bizarre getting ultrasounds when there is no baby to see). Anyways, the lining looked good and thick, but there wasn't a follicle yet. The doctor seemed a little surprised, but she schedule me back for another appointment on Sunday morning. She did say the transfer is looking like next weekend. Fingers crossed! I will try and update after the game (Go Hawks!) on Sunday. Enjoy the weekend!!

Hi Again!

It’s me Jennifer and yes I am finally blogging again! Although you can thank Brenna, she has been harping on me almost daily. I haven’t been on since the failed transfer and I am truly sorry, but thankfully Brenna has been keeping you all updated. My family had a wonderful and as always very chaotic holiday.

Let me explain a little about my lack of blogging. Not only are three kids a handful but the failed cycle sucked! I think going into round one we fully expected everything to work out, I mean why wouldn’t it? I had three successful pregnancies, Brenna deserved it, and all my numbers were off the charts. What?? Doesn’t work that way? Remember during my 2 week wait I was in FL, well the entire time I felt like crap so naturally I was pregnant. I think deep down I knew it didn’t happen, but I wasn’t fully willing to admit it. It was so heartbreaking to see the look on Brenna and Jesse’s faces when the results came in, I felt horrible. And yes, I have been told “it’s not your fault” but really(?!) how could I not feel responsible, all I had to do was hold a pregnancy. And then came the drop in hormones! I thought the hormones were bad; just wait until you stop them.

So now here we are we are doing a natural cycle this time. (!!!) I did the first of several ultrasounds last week. I start the ovulation tests tomorrow and another ultrasound on Thursday. Based on the results I would then do a trigger shot sometime at the end of this week and in six days we try another transfer. Going into this round I am more knowledgeable on the process, but slightly more nervous of the outcome.  All the positive thoughts are welcome!!! I will update again soon (I promise).